2009-08-24
void
this morning seemed fine! now i am all awash in worry.
bed bugs (fuck)
first day of school (yay, but worried)
and the fucking same old shit. i am feeling in constant need of reassurance or SOMETHING because apparently i can't shut the fuck up about it.
now i guess the issue is k's b-day party and whether or not a will be there or k.n. will start any drama etc. all my friends hate the situation and want to forget about it.
and me? fuck. i guess if things were different, i would be trying harder with shay, but the fact is that in order to get over the a situation and he himself, i need to forget about him completely. and with them living together (and now, thanks k, that i can see their cars parked side by side every time i go out on the deck), that just isn't going to happen.
black hole, swallow me up.
tinteardrop at 2:27 p.m.