2009-11-19
brass junction
one of those weird nights where i feel inert. just kind of laid around, but did manage to do a full write up of downsiders for my database..yeeuh!
still feeling so weird about shayna and andy, ugh. its coming up on the weekend and i'm pretty sure i'm going to see at least one of them at least once, so i need to figure it out. i'm still kind of excited at the prospect of seeing him again, sick as it is. but her...fuck, i don't know! i really just don't really want to see her and don't know how i'm going to react. i think i just need to pick an attitude and go with it. casually distant, i think. but with a smile? i don't want to have a conversation or give a hug. but i can do 'stand in the same group and act interested'...maybe. geeuh
regardless, i'm stoked for the week. get to see andy the shrink on friday and talk it out, sean's party with karaoke (yess!) later, then new moon (fucking shwing, i cannot believe i am looking forward to this crap so much) saturday am with mimosas and a possible sneak-in to the second show, nutcracker remix thing at ucsc on saturday night, then nia's goodbye party (possible shayna runin) after followed by some hot zack requiem singing action on sunday day. whew. shud be gud. and then the fucking craptons of homework squeezed in between. glory be.
tinteardrop at 12:02 a.m.