2009-10-23
tecat-hey
saw my new shrink today, which was really great. and surprisingly emotional. i basically started crying as soon as i got there and talked and talked my way up to about june of this year. its going to take a while for it all to come out, but so far the guy seems to get it and is following along.
right away it made me feel better about whats going on. he's hung on the acid trip, which i guess i should be too. i really can't forget about that in this whole equation and what a terrifying fucking disappointment it ended up to be. no wonder i have trust issues man! shits fucked up.
i actually feel much calmer now, too. its friday night and i have absolutely no plans, which has become a regular occurrence. albeit strange, i normally have shit going on! but then again, i normally have friends. its funny. the amount of time i have spent wishing for exactly this - uninterrupted, unplanned alone time. and i love it still, but i just can't shake that 'i should be' feeling. raspberries. luckily i have beer and tv, which has always been my best friend since the lonely days of first year. oh and videogamez! yesssss maam.
one of these days i'll meet some people i can stomach being around for a few hours. hopefully soon.
tinteardrop at 7:29 p.m.